I worked so hard to try to make changes this last year with this but sometimes the universe has other plans.  I know so many people dont understand why I've stayed, but they dont seem to understand that its not so easy to leave.  You need the basics:  food, shelter and I cannot put myself at risk for homelessness.   Its not so easy to find work either when you've been unemployed and people look at your resume and wonder what's wrong with you.   You need a job to get a job and that's an obstacle that I wasnt able to conquer this last year>>